I'm Not Sure

I'm not sure what it is.
Perhaps it's  because I've
been clean ( apart from
weed ) for a year, but my
memories are returning.

Alongside the emotions
that I had forgotten.

It's a very strange thing.
A bit like seeing the past
as if it's a movie.

Except, you feel it, too.

As I said, I'm not sure what
it is.
I'm not sure if I like it, or not.

Sometimes I'm laughing at
the stupid things that my
friends got up to.

Sometimes I feel completely
depressed at the stupid things
that I got up to.

Anyway,
they're the only memories I've
got.

I try my best to enjoy them.