1.6 equations of the apocalypse


A cyborg human of mass 5 kg lies on
The horizontal cheeks of a dark god.
If a horizontal fire of 8n is applied to
The nose of the wind through the tip
Of the flames and coefficient of the whirlwind,
Transforming a boy to a man, a man to a god
The total measure of bones broken by
Stone-age goddesses and their broken lips are:
     a.       The cyborg + human= 2.5 kg x 2
     = 5kg of fire neighing on the tooth of the apocalypse.
     b.      The horizontal fire incubating the laughter
     Of bones in this poem= ––termination ––
                          8n in geographical force
     c.       & because a poem died with no masking tape
Of death in a whisper:

Bones= horizontal fire
Cyborg human
——> (h + f)  n  = 8n
C + h= 5kg
——> h + f
C + h
——> 8n of breathless fire
5 kg of terminated thunder
——> = 1.6 men singing the anthem of heaven
            = 1.6 mothers with no song to sing their melodies
            = 1.6 gods, overgrown into monsters
            = 1.6 universes with no oxygen to name a soul
            = 1.6 whispers of fire on the chest of time. 

Charles Mingus: 1979 - 
jazz makes otherwise
wise—

play the wrong notes
they still do something
play the right notes
they do too

hence the jazzy
like warriors—
old as their tomb

jazz reminding
we're all of us
yet born


Expected:
A child digs for treasure
and delights finding a worm.

Plant strawberries
you grow ravens.

Ask for much, receive little.
Ask for little, receive much
or little
or nothing.

I asked for everything
I received you.
You asked for nothing
you received me.

Beware looking in another's eyes—
you'll find something.

Transmission

Drinking red wine on the patio,
slapping mosquitoes the color of smoke,
I watch the Milky Way shift east to west
above the roof’s black shingle.

One hundred thousand years ago my ancestors,
beneath these very stars,
invented a glossary of gods to limit chaos.
Mosquitoes died, leaves fell,
the galaxy drifting west.
                                                                                                                    In the liquid gift of night,
I send my signal to the future.
By the time it's reached,
I'll be gone.

Night Ride

Full tank of gas
my old Impala waxed smooth

I'll keep it under 140 mph
out into the country

heading deep into the back roads
narrow lanes lined by wide-eyed deer

down and up into the hills
moonlit trees and meadows

listening to the hum
of the never ending

memories
taking their turns

removing my hands
from the steering wheel....

“The Genes of American Decay”

In a country of senseless killings,
And brutal overseas domination
“There’s no place for this kind of violence,”
A senile president says
After the failed assassination of a burgeoning fascist.
The veneer of prayer is like the blood on the ear,
A barbaric sign of sanctioned irrationality
Twisting hatred into the divine.
The underlying ill will split the people inside,
Tuned to the dominant civility that is ongoing genocide.
They have no aim. These states cannot unify
Beyond the delusional equity that all
Are burning equally in the collapse of our home
Or the bulldozing of homeless camps,
Although that is clearly a lie.
Your myths are drenched in the glory of war,
Your conspiracy ideologies believe in the necessity of apocalypse.
Yet all must pray, and unite
in all being fascists today. 



“No Time For A Peon, Hey Protean Mag?”

How are art
And politics the same?
For a start
Think of the nature of fame.

Each one the privileged domain
Of the upper classes
Leaving a drain
On the expression of the masses.

Is it that socialists so intellectualize
That they forget
The pillar of their theory is set
On the simple need to democratize?

Where is it that The Left will go
Creating authorities out of an industry like Verso.
Building hierarchies out of a bourgeois sensibility
Believing the extent of the process was getting a doctorate in Marxist theory.

Don’t tell ME to organize
Or expect me to read your stars
As if the movement was “ours,”
If one simple dialogue you can’t even communize. 

Sometimes
--------------------
Sometimes I forget
just how cool it is
to be me.

I've got exquisite
taste in music.

Literature.

Films.

Food.

TV.

Pretty much everything
to be honest.

Sometimes I forget
just how cool it is
to be me. 

Meditation on Alcoholism
Insanity climbs to the top of spine,
It's always some kind of beast or another.
Ground meat for a back,
Bones sucked dry.
Sick, hindered by the very weight of thought,
Crashing harder than meteors.
Imprints of destruction in skin,
The archaeological artifacts of a life
With out control.
Never quite able to understand the divine
Spark within; Never able to accept
That helping hand. Invisible yet all embracing
Which comes from the eternal fount
That bleeds love.
Never quite able to grasp the mythic hope,
That once saved my soul.
Perhaps this time I'll learn the lesson;
Before i'm beneath the ground so cold.
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In the times of struggle/\a new smoke break poem___
Waking up and going to sleep

Living a life constantly on the ropes
Blocking nor feet shuffling. Brings
recourse
Sitting out side
The frozen world crawls upon me
I am shivering beneath it
Beneath the weight of all of it
Smoking one of my rare these days
Cigarettes
thinking of how such
A life was once sought by my younger
Version
now ragged and embroiled with
Dis ease and despair
I exhale what smokey life remains
----

For Michael McClure __
Transformation of language
A mystical ecology
Holy mumbling
Of existence

Be meat stars
Eternal vibrations
Of sound
Be you
Me
Us
The full bodies of intelligence
Swimming same pool
Be the eternal
Sigh
Of birth
Guttural echoes
Of concentrated
Protoplasm
Our ever morphing
Consciousness
Moving through
Time simultaneous
Explosions of
Immortality
Lasting both a second, for all time
The bicycle of
Dream
Hear my mammalian swoon of silent
Augury
Sigh
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Forgetting Emily in the Dens

 
Gina danced around the pole,
Hank Williams Jr. blasted through the speakers,
and the bourbon flowed freely into the glass;
 
I knew the owner, we once had fucked the same woman,
and he liked the poems I gave him written on cocktail napkins.
 
he watered me with Four Roses and Jim Beam;
every night I left petrified, unable to find my way back home.
 
thankfully, Gina (usually; sometimes, other women, whose
names have been lost in the roaring sea of time),
would sometimes come back with me.
 
the bus ride would sober me up and at 8am I’d
have to have some Wild Turkey to balance the
alcohol my then well-functioning liver could process.
 
she was exhausted most of the times, collapsing on my small, uncomfortable bed,
her gentle snoring the only music I needed to feel energized, drain some glasses,
and sit at the keyboard, commencing the dance that will never
get me anywhere, because my inspiration’s always been illegal substances,
lethal amounts of bourbon, and hard women that embrace their roughness.
 
never married her; never saved her from a life in underground strip joints;
never met her at an airport as she was about to leave the country broke
and heartbroken; we never lasted 11 minutes; it lasted months,
seconds, and lifetimes.
 
never 11 minutes; there was no inspiring tale behind it,
no grand love nor a glowing prince
to carry her to the glass palace where dreams come true
and happily ever after exists.
 
she was the hardcore princess of the dens, able to turn someone’s lights out
with one hard punch on the bridge of the nose; you did not want to get
kicked in the nuts by her, trust me.
 
she was there, couple of months after Emily was taken away by the
heartless spike. we didn’t last, as I’ve said, and we could have never lasted.
 
soon, I gave up on the den; the strippers didn’t do it for me,
nor drinking outside my tiny apartment. I bought bourbon from the drugstore
and drugs from Jenna. and that’s all there was to it; for years, glass-pipes
and bourbon bottles had been my sole true companions—one night stands,
periodical affairs, and summer flings could never amount to anything more
than a few stories, few lines, a couple of heartaches.
 
Emily was the true love, taken away
way too soon,
 
ever since her funeral, I’ve searched for the
right path to follow; and I found it in an
underground joint few people knew of,
 
and I’ve lost it. now,
I’m trying to regain those months,
in constant lookout for a new joint
with an owner that’ll appreciate dirty poetry
in moist napkins.

Fate Can Wait 

 
Every so often,  
it's important to shut the world off.  

Get sun soaked;  
        preferably near a pool.  
Sit on Walmart chairs,  
they recline better than elegant cabanas.  

Assemble the best people you can find.  

For me: it's the wild dreamers,  
   	the mouth pieces that spin jokes all night,  
     	and the personas that pack years in-between orders of cocktails. 

Snag some Love;  
        at whatever level you need to be fulfilled.   
Could stand for a night,  
        or hump your way to matrimony.    

People will rattle off opinions;  
        freely about your life,  
        and never apply the advice 
        to enjoy their own time. 

Our biggest crime 
        is a “better way” for others live,  
        that we never apply to ourselves. 

Figure out what gets you hard,  
        and get good at fucking it.  

We are all here  
        for not enough time.  
It's imperative  
        To live the desires in your heart. 

Self-reflection is maddening...we think things should be a certain way,  
make sense at a precise time,  
   	and flow how we expect it too.  

Endurance is better than answers 
because correct never comes up the same. 
Eat drugs,  
        get over it, nights & days  
        are equally fleeting,  
        you’re gonna lose,  
        get over it.  

Here’s a quick piece of extra advice:  
don't blow it. 

Evaluation of Prospective Employee

Negative points:
Can hardly read.
Writes with fat crayon.
Can't do simple math.
Loses car in parking lot.
Can't use a broom.
Chopped off two toes.
Can't count change.
Can't button buttons.
Registered pervert.
Hates spaghetti.
Neo-Nazi affiliation.
Smells like butt.
Fears dogcatchers.

Positive Points:
Loves Jesus.
Slipped me a c-note.
Brought in nose candy.
Cousin Carol's first born.

Recommendation:
Hire immediately.
Executive potential.