P.A. Jones

What I Do When Anger Wants the Wheel

Anger shows up in my truck at dusk,
door already open,
boots on the dash,
mud on the floor mat I just washed.

It smells of old arguments and sweat.
It knows the roads better than I do.

It tells me to drive faster,
tells me every light is an insult.

We pass the pawn shop with barred windows.
We pass the church with the empty lot.
We pass the house where I learned
how to turn silence into a weapon.

Anger taps the glass with one finger.
Every face outside becomes a threat.
Every memory turns into a blade.

The past climbs into the back seat.

My hands tighten on the wheel.
The engine swells with heat.
The speedometer rises toward confession.
The road narrows into a dare.

Anger tells me to say the thing
that burns bridges to ash,
to make a clean break
with a dirty mouth.

I pull into a gas station
with one light working.
The clerk doesn’t look up.
The floor carries a thousand nights
of spilled drink.
The freezer hums with buried hunger.

I shut the engine down.

Silence fills the cab with weight.

Anger curses the quiet.

I stay in the seat.
Keys in my fist.
Breath stacking slow in my chest.

The blood cools its fists.

Anger slouches in the passenger seat,
mouth full of smoke,
eyes hunting for an exit.

I don’t throw it out.
I don’t give it the wheel.

I start the truck
when my hands stop shaking.

We leave the lot
at the speed of staying human.




Unarmed

Listen.

Violence don’t start with fists.
It starts with fear.
Fear of losing ground.
Fear of being seen.
Fear that if we stop talking
the truth might speak first.

So fear puts on a clean shirt.
Signs papers.
Prays in the pew.
Calls itself necessary
and sleeps fine.

Faith gets drafted.
Not to heal,
but to steady hands,
to bless force,
to make panic sound holy.

Meekness gets laughed at.
Softness gets you killed.
Certainty grabs the mic
and nobody asks who wired the sound.

That’s the game.

Keep it loud.
Keep it moving.
Keep everybody reacting.
No time to notice
your jaw locked tight.

Because if you stop,
really stop,
the story don’t hold.

The body knows.
Chest tight.
Breath thin.
A man can shout God all day
and still feel fear chewing his ribs.

So I step into the quiet.
Not hiding.
Not holy.
Just a place where nothing works
except the truth.

No weapons here.
No slogans.
No crowd to disappear into.
Just breath.
Just fear.
Just staying put long enough
to see what’s actually driving.

And once you see it,
you don’t get to unsee it.

Violence ain’t strength.
It’s panic with permission.
Faith ain’t certainty.
It’s staying when fear
demands an answer
right now.

So I don’t strike back.
I don’t harden.
I don’t pretend I’m clean.

I refuse to let fear
finish the sentence.

A small mercy survives this way,
quiet,
stubborn,
strong enough to tell the truth
without raising its voice.

This ain’t peace.
This ain’t victory.

This is a man
standing in the noise,
choosing attention over armor,
learning, slow and honest,
how not to become
what he’s afraid of.

Eric D. Goodman

I Hear America Crying


I hear America crying, the muffled cries I hear,


the worried cries of drivers along city streets and country roads,
tension of black hands gripping steering wheels,
the flash of blue lights in the rearview mirror,

the exhausted crying of laborers with calloused hands
that scrub floors, hold mops, grip tools,
hours that grow heavy with the weight of work unending,

the moaning crying of well diggers, oil riggers, miners, blacksmiths,
knuckles worn to the bone as they unearth and create
goods they will never afford,

the grinding, rattling crying of mechanics
beneath hoods, underneath vehicles,
oil-stains lasting longer than paychecks,

the painful crying of fishermen and butchers and farmers,
massive ships and farms and warehouses full
while their families’ cupboards remain bare,

the cries of the weary,
working two jobs, three jobs,
building debt instead of wealth, uncertainty instead of security,

the crying of the mother, of the young wife, of the sweatshop girl,
supplementing paychecks of the rest of the family,

even cries from the wealthy, reaping the benefits of others’ labor
yet watching their portfolios disagree with their intentions,
falling and making them feel poor,

each crying with breath broken
beneath the weight of American dreams deferred,

crying for what they wish could be
a joyful, melodious song.



Blue Collar Orange


I wore blue all my life,
to shield, to serve—

the weight of my badge
an anchor I let dig too deep.

I’ve pinned down criminals before,
voices thinned beneath me,
beneath the law, the rule, the authority.

Sometimes they struggle,
fight the power,
resist the law, the rule, the authority.

Situations escalate, egos inflate,
sometimes theirs, sometimes ours.

It’s my duty to press harder,
to enforce the law, the rule, the authority.

Blue fades to orange,
badge traded for bars,
conviction my new shade.

Me, now raw as the men
I’ve pressed into cold streets,
another victim of the law, the rule, the authority,

locked up
but still breathing.

D.R. James

April Fool


Just because it’s linearly April the Second,
who’s the boss who says this punk-ass snow—
reduced now to an intermittent drizzle whizzing on the roof—

and this one-tone, tag-along slab of sleepy gray—
since the sun’s just up—
and this white elephant of an extra hour before barreling in to work,
and then the kids coming tonight from their mom’s
for Sorry
or not,
as’ll happen—

who says it can’t all go perfectly
with this seasonal transition’s shy thunder
clearing its phlegmish voice
over all these leafless trees,

with this mismixed black-and-tan of mismatched Spring?

I’ve let myself grow fond of longing
for set pieces,
for still-lifes requiring
one from Column A,
another number I forget from Column B,
a soundtrack from, I’m only guessing,
Column C,

figuring it has to be this prissy mania
for the alphabetical.

Meanwhile, while the world gets away
with spinning its weighted wheel any which way
it wants, our singed hearts roulette
for whatever weather rolls in off a controlling coast.

But what of these self-tranquilized tendencies,
our domesticated blood?
Couldn’t we eat a rich lunch at ten,
decide on another at two,
boldly call it supper
and be ready for breakfast by five-fifty,
then call it a night
or, even better, a new day?
In any case, couldn’t we be more awake, more
Thoruvian, with “Rock Around the Clock”
our invocative alarum
not some old benedictive ex∙e∙unt?

(I’m beginning to sense some hostility.)

Which reminds me of the time my third good idea—
that one involving literature and the golden summer of ’77,
which we spent largely melting into a solitary beach
until our bones felt as though they’d bake along
and last forever together—
turned out to be just another in a long
but entertaining line
of nice-to-have-known-you usurpations (though by now
it’s taken the form of a couple
tortured
decades),

which was before poetry—
wide-wale cords
worn thin across her bony cheeks—
materialized from the dust, squatting
predictably over an opened road,
and smirked me into this other,
this more welcoming,
dementia.




Swimming


Apparently it has been said
that two lions guard
the door to Enlightenment. But
Paradox and Confusion, two
of the best friends a guy could hope
to leave behind,
seem more like two winos
blocking the door
to your apartment, trying
to avoid enlightenment,
though they don’t know it.
You could step over them
but you’d risk their awakening.
I wish I were an abstraction
in the form of a non-cognizant
but ferocious mammal. Not only
would I be warm-blooded
and highly respected and
sporting a non-thinning mane,
but I could save all the time
I now spend attempting
consciousness. It’s also been said
that I tend more toward
the cold-blooded (possibly
reaching luke-warm when sunshine
heats up the lagoon) and not
regularly regarded, since I’m off
swimming the world, looking
for the world in which I swim.
Which is funny if I think about it.
Which I can’t. I’m like
Prufrock in his flannel pants,
pushed around by a Symbolist,
three teeth cracked on peach pits,
love life always aground
around tea-time, sleeping
just out of earshot
so as not to drown.

Livio Farallo

abracadabra

there’s a noise

in the alchemy of

the

countryside. there’s a beaker

                       of saltwater flush

as an

ocean. i can’t dance

             like a snake, so i slither

                                    in olfactory

                                    exhaustion and bite down hard.

the sun is a bright mountain

defy-

ing gravity: houdini with a smile. and

someone is

           waiting in the siberian traps with a demitasse of dna,

           ready to slurp: ready to

scald. and i am a clown

                               with my own nose

rid-

ing ponies like a surfboard.

a whine comes from a snowdrift,

adumbrates

                      a whisper, a snore, somnambulism that floats

like a ghost through

         basement windows. it could be the wind murmuring “presto”.

it could be the giggling of a pint-sized giant

                                                pulled from a hat.

but the only magic i’ve seen

is simply a hand

                    gun

fir-

ing backwards and a

                           cell phone that smokes.  

Ismael S. Rodriguez Jr

The Factory of Your Lungs

Every exhale is counted, weighed, and sold to someone who doesn’t live here—
someone who has never woken to the rattle of dawn
shaking the dust from its pockets
like a tired god clocking in for another shift.
In this town, breath is a currency.
The children trade theirs for recess,
the elders for a quiet afternoon without coughing up
another gray feather of the sky’s exhaustion.
We are paid in particulate promises:
tiny specks of maybe, someday, almost.
The smokestacks rise like stern foremen,
tall as verdicts delivered without trial.
They do not blink.
They do not bargain.
They take their tithe of oxygen
and leave our chests echoing like half-collapsed warehouses.
Still, we show up.
We shoulder the sun.
We lift the morning until it glows faintly,
a lantern swaying above the picket line of our ribs.
Some nights, a breeze sneaks in—
an outlaw wind slipping between the factories
with news from somewhere greener.
It whispers: breathe deeper,
your lungs are not a ledger.
And we try—
inhalation as rebellion,
exhalation as prayer—
each breath a small strike
against the empire of smoke
that believes it owns us.



Subway Graffiti as Prophecy

The train rattles past midnight slogans,
each one a warning written in neon dust.
Letters drip like fresh constellations
on the ribs of silver cars—
WE WERE HERE, NOT YOUR CITY,
EVERY WALL HAS A PULSE.
Beneath the murmuring advertisements of tomorrow,
a sharper gospel flickers in unauthorized color.
The tunnels memorize it.
The rats translate it into twitching scripture.
Even the conductors read it with their eyes closed.
A crown made of spray caps rolls along the tracks.
A halo of sirens hums in the distance,
late as always, faithful as gravity.
Someone has stitched a future into brick and speed,
a prophecy that refuses to wait for permission.
We pretend not to see it,
eyes trapped in glowing rectangles of curated hope,
while the walls scream in wild typography:
THE CITY IS A DREAM EATING ITS DREAMERS.
BREAK THE SPELL.
By morning the messages will be skinned raw by cleanup crews,
bleached into respectable silence.
But the night will remember.
The tunnels will rehearse.
And the next train will arrive already whispering
what the daylight is afraid to admit.



A Brief History of Sidewalks

Concrete remembers the soles it carried,
the faces erased, the corners abandoned.
It remembers the soft geography of need—
bus tokens warm in palms, the choreography
of waiting, the loose change mooning in cups.
Once, this block spoke in many tempos:
domino slaps, arguments, laughter stitched
through open windows like second curtains.
Then the paint arrived first—
that clean lie of renewal—
followed by names no one here could pronounce
without learning new mouths.
Rent rose like floodwater without rain.
Porches narrowed. Lives folded.
Now the coffee costs more than the day’s wages
of the ghosts who still cross here at dusk.
Dogs with better health plans
tug silver leashes past the places
children learned the art of swerving traffic.
Even the weeds have been rezoned.
But listen closely at night
when the foot traffic thins to memory:
the sidewalk exhales names it is blamed for losing.
Each crack’s a ledger.
Each stain, a stubborn footnote.
Progress keeps receipts in erased feet.
And still—
the pavement waits, wide and patient,
for the next unpermitted story
to step back into the light.

Peter Mladinic

Collaboration

I woke this morning in the dark with a face
in mind: a senior citizen wanted to reach out
and, I suspect, apologize for a wrong done
some sixty-five years ago. Sorry, no thanks.
I too have been tempted to reach out, even
atone. “Let sleeping dogs lie, let the dead
bury …” I think there’s an animal buried

in my back yard. There’s grass and then
an area, a sandy rise, like a pitcher’s mound,
and, here and there, patches of black plastic,
like those thick trash bags, little triangles of
black plastic sticking up. Part of me wants
to start digging, but I might have to call
the city health department or animal control.
What if it’s a person, a human corpse?

I doubt that. I woke with that boyish face
and a thought of buried things. Some people
have gardens. My friend Bob’s sister scattered
his ashes in her garden. Some people have
watch collections, others coin collections.
My DVD collection I got rid of. I replaced it
with, I’m proud to say, being somewhat tech-
challenged, digital movies! This morning

I thought Ray, I should go to Amazon for Ray.
The click of a button. Taylor Hackford’s film
starring Jamie Fox as the great Ray Charles.
In one scene Ray’s sitting at the piano and
the guy who plays the great Ahmet Ertegun
comes up to him. “Hey, Ray, I got this song …”
Ahmet sits at the piano, in a little whiny voice
sings “You can talk about the pit, barbecue.”

Suddenly Ray’s banging away at the piano,
singing, screeching, shouting, the camera’s
whirling, the moviegoers in the theater, ones
not dead from the neck down, at the edge
of musical greatness, are out of their chairs
at “Now this band’s going to play from nine
to one.” The camera’s whirling, “the house
is rocking.” Jamie Fox nails “Mess Around.”

When The Buffalo Springfield sang, “Hello,
Mr. Soul, I stopped by to think up a reason”
they were singing about the great Ahmet
Ertegun, the son of a Turkish ambassador.
I love that part in Ray, where, at the piano
he kind of mumbles, then Ray takes it, letting
us know it’s great to be alive, not ignoring
the buried things. Keep them in perspective.

Alan Catlin

Mister Lucky

When he was in Nam
got transferred
from Danang to some
dinky dao airport down South
in east jesus on the coast
of nowhere.
He was short, but, pissed,
thinking they needed an
air ground controller there,
like Custer needed more Indians,
and he was stuck all by his
lonesome with a bunch of strange
hand jobs he didn't know from shit.
Two weeks later,
he was sucking in the smoke
of many dreams,
trying hard not to cry, or
be as paranoid as he felt,
trying hard to feel lucky,
being the only guy in his
former unit left alive after
that base at Danang got overrun,
and some serious shit hit the fan,
"Jesus, fuck, Man, shit……"
was all he could think to say since
he heard the news, and he felt as if
he'd been fucked royal up the ass
in the jungle by Sir Charles himself.
Hadn't slept in four days,
'cause every time he shut his eyes
the screams of the dying men he knew
at that base, woke him up into this
place that was so much worse than
bad dreams.
Guys who saw how he was sd.,
"He was a walking Section 8
waiting to happen. As good as dead
as far as the army was concerned."
"He was better off dead.
At least then it would all be over
and he wouldn't have to think about it
anymore.”



Unknown Soldier

He was born on the Fourth of July
beaten at student demonstrations
in Madison
Chicago
Columbia

He was shot at by national guard
troops at Kent State
arrested and confined in solitary
after Jackson State

Bitten by police dogs at civil rights
marches in Alabama
Mississippi
Georgia

He was Vietnam Veteran for Peace
at anti-war marches
well into the 70’s

Was tear gassed
billy clubbed
pepper sprayed

But he never gave up
and he came back
and you can see him marching now

He is your father,
brother
uncle
cousin
on crutches
with prosthetic limbs
riding in a wheelchair

Follow him and
shake his hand
if he has one




Flashback

"I beat the bottle but
I can't beat the war"
after an acrylic on canvas
by Ron Mann

30 years after
the fact a lawnmower
two yards over
backfires and just
like that I'm back
in-country sucking
in lawn chemicals
instead of air,
all that fertilizer
for a mind on a
perpetual edge
recalling an agent
orange dawn that
colors all the jungle
a dark unnatural
light like the hand
of death pressing down
the sharp, bladed
grass next to a
recently roto-tilled
garden plot, that
graveyard for lost
crops, plowed under
plants, dead soldiers
composted a dark, rich
loam thick with earth
worms fattened on
the rotting skins
of the dead

Preacher Allgood

from the smokes of long dead railroaders



sure her cat puked on the desk
my grandpa rescued from the train depot after the big fire in ‘36
sure she sold my rusted out MGB/GT
the one with the wire knock-off wheels
to an Okie while I was in rehab
and sure she spent the proceeds from that little swindle
on plane fare to Chicago to visit her mother
and sure I couldn’t get enough
of eyeballing that German/Mexican jalapeno ass
or the tamales she cooked in the big pot on my old Kenmore stove
but I wasn’t all that sorry
when she came to me on a snowy blustery evening
with big tears in her eyes and said
I’m going back to Billy
he got out of jail and he wants to have a baby
and you don’t want to have a baby
and you’re so drunk you can’t get it up most of the time
and I like you but I really want to have a baby
so I’m going back to Billy are you mad at me?


sure I wasn’t mad at her
sure I was relieved that I wouldn’t be cleaning any more cat puke
off the big slab of oak that I prized for its history and its connection
to my grandpa who began railroading
on the Kansas Southern in nineteen twenty-two
and who swallowed mustard gas in the war to end all war
and who kept a flask of “pain killer” out in his garage
along with his pea green 1950 Studebaker Champion
but I might have been a little bit mad about those tamales
because I’d never eaten homemade tamales
and unless you’ve eaten homemade tamales
stuffed with pork and homemade masa
wrapped in fresh corn husks and steamed in their own juices
or sat at a big desk that’s scarred by burns from the smokes of long dead railroaders
and waited for another poem to show up
you can’t possibly understand what this poem means

Adam J. Galanski-De León

COME SIT BY THE FIRESIDE


Rosehill Cemetery gates across the street

barroom, front patio, back patio, dining room

one bar back. Career alcoholics,

a sea of pony and half barrel kegs

lining the floors of the basement

change the sanke, wrench the nozzle, Co2 tanks

hissing beer pouring from brass taps

pint glasses sweating in the heat

bouncing, Latin Kings smashing bar stools

on my back, people stomping on heads

on the sidewalk

shot glasses thrown in my face, pint glasses

coworkers fucking each other in the bathroom

biker lady wielding a Billy club at my head

ex-girlfriend crashes my van out front

CPD extorts me for four hundred dollars

run to the 24-hour Jewel to grab cash from the ATM

homicide detectives next to drug dealers next to

Pakistani cab drivers and service industry regulars

and sex workers, cockroaches crawling out of our food

they are in my clothes, fall of the ceiling into my hair

I ladle one out of the ranch dressing, one crawls out of my salad

Juan fucks up and is attacked by a woman clicking a taser

Tommy scales the wall to break in and cooks himself breakfast

and is knocked out with a punch to the face

then scales the wall and does it again

my Tai boss takes me from my shift in the middle of the night

to bring me to her Lady Boy Show in a closed off

Tai restaurant in an empty neighborhood

people are slipping twenties into thongs while the

Lady boys dance seductively and sing karaoke

7 AM, we are shotgunning Strongbow in the parking lot while

cyclists go by to start their day

boxes fall over int the beer cooler, our glug wine container

is filled with trash, spit, and germs, and we microwave

it and serve it to customers

a terrible man asks me to phone him a cab to Rogers Park

I send him to 95th and Halsted, his wife is in the hospital dying

and he is here hitting on 21-year-old girls. Leaving,

a coyote follows me down the street by the train tracks

the street is covered in mist, unseen birds singing.

I walk a mile home

in silence.

Danielle Hubbard

                    To you who stole my bicycle

We used to tackle Knox Mountain together, me
and Knoxy, the trails criss-crossed like scattered
spokes, Lake Okanagan flaring
around each hairpin, each blind turn, blinking
between the scrub-trees, bright
as titanium rims. My Knoxy

was a humble Trek Marlin, but fine
fine fine to me. I stabled her in my living
room and never went to bed without patting
her handlebars goodnight. She carried me
sweating and elated to the library, swimming

pool, the scrabble-trails of Rose Valley
before they burned. Knoxy was marigold
red, the color of the Okanagan
on fire. She bounded sure-wheeled
over boulders, bracken, down inclines
steep as stairs. But here’s the thing – it wasn’t
the fires that got her. It was you.

An August Sunday, I glided
downhill to the pool, locked
my Knoxy safe to the bike racks, snug
among the Schwinns and Huffys, all
wagging their fenders, catching
each other up on the gossip.

I remember the smoke that day, thick
as rubber mesh. Across the lake,
Rose Valley candled in the wind.
The crown of Knox Mountain dissolved.
At the end of my swim, only a Knoxy-shaped
gap remained at the racks.

My helmet quivered on the asphalt
like a severed skull, or an eggshell kicked
from the nest. The other bikes cowered
as I gathered the remains, the lock
clean-severed like a vertebrae
when you land a jump dead-wrong.

What can I say to you – you
who stole my Knoxy? I want
to tell you to clean her chain, lick
each link until your tongue
gums black. I want her gears
to crush your knuckles if you ever

– I mean ever –

frame her as a getaway
accomplice on your next
dumb heist. You better
ride her heroically or bring
her home, you fuck.




Why I covet the color magenta

Because fireweed is a voyeur,
flocking to the site of a blaze.
Magellan’s armada was the first to claw
its way around the globe – magnificent!

Magenta is an extra-spectral color,
not derived from visible light.
Extra-special, extra-terrestrial.
Magellanic Clouds turned out to be galaxies,

gyroscoping out of grasp.
Magellan’s crew died of scurvy
and hallucinations – spectres, spooks,
tug-of-war with tortoises.

Ladies of the night wield magenta parasols,
garters, all those trappings of want.
I covet the color magenta
because of arterial maps, oddly faded.

Because of charts and magnetism,
chalk drawings, compasses,
the all-encompassing gravity of space.
Placentas, placebos, and magic.

Magenta is the patron saint of escapism,
the magenta sky orchid a symbol of wealth
and admiration. Magenta neckties
stand out in a crowd. Magenta lipstick

is only for special occasions – a trip
to the planetarium or a certain rendezvous.
I crave Crayola markers, cartoon dragons,
flying saucers. All the conspiracies of childhood.

Magellan himself was speared to death
half-way home. The Jovian gas giant Gliese 504b
shows up as magenta in the radio images.
I want to bounce it like a rubber ball.

If I could choose a color for my breath,
I’d choose magenta.
If the Magellanic Clouds could rain,
we’d all go up in star-fire – marvelous!