the taste of blood on christmas morning
there’s a joy
in her laughter
a sense of danger
with the stare
it’s the taste of blood
on christmas morning
lost in the neon haze
of an old string of
lights and another
glass of something
strong
two old souls passing
like ships in the night
you meet some people
in your life and just
know if this or that
would have happened…
you wouldn’t be the
miserable fading fuck
lost in this terrible
world
although, world peace
as your wish for
christmas is something
you should know by
now is a myth reserved
for children
no adult should even
think such a thing is
possible
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the new kitchen floor
i can remember
fucking you on
the new kitchen
floor
i made you
breakfast in
that kitchen
the next
morning
a week later
you decided
you were better
off as just a
friend
i offered her
the bed but she
had to have it
right there
and the floor
wasn’t dirty
either
let’s just say
anytime i see a
white linoleum
floor i get slightly
disgusted
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a loaded shotgun
these are the mornings
where i imagine myself
on my grandmother’s
bathroom floor
and instead of my
cousin’s nipple in
my mouth, it’s a
loaded shotgun
and then i imagine
just how much easier
life would have been
if that was my fucking
truth
i never lived all these
years expecting anyone
to understand my pain
i just wanted someone
to tell me it was going
to be okay
no one could understand
that either
all these hard truths
forced down my throat
like i was an unwilling
participant in life
no one could wrap their
heads around the fact
that my taste for pain
is an infinite shield
that only i can control
and as soon as i fully
believe that lie
i’ll truly be immortal
a nightmare to all
and the envy of none